how should I go about getting rid of and over this guy I've been with him for 5 years now, and am pregnant with my third by him the other two I gave up for adoption because I was 17 at the time and his family (with his help)was terrorizing me, and trying to take them from me for their own sick reasons ( welfare, $$$$$$$$$$$$$$) mostly him and his mother and sister, and his 2 sister-in laws were the ones. I know most people who think they are being conspired against sound looney, but I was LITERALLY when I was just 16 to 17 for many months right under my nose, that really fucked me up. So I don't regret at all giving them to the people who have them now, considering they are probably the best adoptive parents in the whole world, and let me see them on all holidays and birthdays, He is happy about that too, now.
Well I've been getting us a place to stay, paying all the rent the whole time while he paid all the bills, through 4 different places this happened, until the bills stopped getting paid and now he cant get electric or gas in his name so i pay for all that now, and work, and he stays at home mostly doing god knows what, by the way he is 13 years older than me. I'll just to get the point, he is NOT on my side, he is NOT my partner, he talks behind my back to his family and friends, and so when i go around there with him they all are weary of me, lets say, they ignore me and i get left alone or just get smart comments thrown at me, he of course, never sticks up for me. I just dont want to be with him, but sometimes I feel like I love him so much, then then something happens, like he talks to the girl who pulls up in a car with her mom, who he thought he knocked up a few years back but the kid ended up not being his after he took care of it for 3 years, I feel pure hate for him when things like that happen.
I can't really have any friends because they are all pieces of shit according to him, so I have to come on here for advice. The problem is I'm so ready for him to be gone, so I tell him to leave and he is like " alright" and gets ready to go, and at the last minute I start thinking of all these things, of how lonely and lost I would be without him, and how much i " really do love him" and how maybe I'm overreacting, and I need him for my own good. I don't know what to do, i just want it to be over and be happy he is gone forever. I just need some advice on how to go about doing this in a smart way, that'll help me from losing sleep at night, thank you. - Asked by Female, 18-21 |